He lost the way to the sun

He’s forgeting us
By forgeting me,
Pretending to go on
And love another.

He never faces himself,
Hidding again
Under small details.
He stopped hoping.

He stopped believing.
He stopped dreaming.
He stopped remembering.
But he never stopped loving me.

He lives as a nomad,
From one day to another.
He tries to kill his heart
And make it stop beating.

He thinks all has ended,
And suffers in silence.
Why wouldnt he speak up
And wave the white flag?

He is lost now.
Lost the way to the sun.
He’s forgetting us,
By forgetting me.

How does letting go work?

 

We read and hear everywhere that we should learn how to relax, to let go, because it eases our lives.
We know it ourselves, but when we get trapped inside our own boxes I guess it becomes quite hard to learn the way out. We struggle, we fight, we get lost from time to time, people bring us down, situations become impossible and everything else just builds up. How do we learn to let go? How do we starts worrying and just let it be? It takes a great amount of disappointment to start forgetting everything you knew and restart your system. And I tend to believe it is wrong in a way. If you are how you are, should you change yourself just to have it easier? Or pretending something doesn’t affect you, won’t affect you in the end?:)
I find it braver to face the facts, to know where you are standing. Are you living the life you wanted or are you just playing safe because this is what everyone else is saying?!

He likes

He likes women. He likes them a lot, all kinds: young women, older ones, blondes, brunettes, taller, shorter, skinny, curvy, smart and dumb. He feels in control when he is around them, when he noticed they notice him. His ego gets aroused, grows bigger and bigger everyday, proportional with his imagination and fetishism. He feels like the king of the jungle, admired and always in the spotlight, worshiped and respected, wanted by all of them.
He likes to play, to look, to touch. He often plays hot and cold, providing his victims enough time to easily start feeling confused and when they are totally lost, he attacks! Always so proud of him, always paying attention to every single small detail.

A grand master at his best, a Don Juan who never stops dreaming about love, but he ends up feeling frustrated of not getting what he expects. This Cassanova might just give you a simple look and you are already on your road to perdition.

He loves women, he loves them just like a master puppeteer loves his puppets! He is crazy about them, can’t live without them, but just like the puppeteer has several puppets, he also needs and wants several women. He never gets enough, he never stops, he always dreams of a bigger love, an nonexistent one. The sky is his limit and a woman’s smile his point start.

His middle name is troubble and if you’re here, you already know that! He got under your skin and now you want to remove him. Totally! Forever! You want to end his game or the game will end you!

Oh, how he loves women! He might love you,too. Just like he loves her…and her!

 

Puzzle

It’s not easy knowing what people want. It’s almost impossible understanding when they show something, but they mean something else. Looks can be deceiving they say, I say the human mind is a labyrinth and one way or another you will be trapped inside. There is no way out!

Will we ever find the perfect strategy to win over humanity’s deceiving appearances?

I have been trying that my whole life, did it constantly and still didn’t get the essence of it. But one of the best lessons I learned was not to have any expectations…and it worked! I stopped having expectations from others, but it seems like the others started having more expectations from me. Tricky situation…Still trapped inside the circle, still trying to figure out how to solve the issue. Next step seems to be learning how to tell them they are wrong or-the ultimate- learning not to care.

Do vibrations count when it comes to understanding what others want when showing something really different or should we pick up mind guessing? Wouldn’t it be so much easier if they would just simply say what’s on their mind/soul? Wouldn’t communication be the easy way out instead of hiding  in the back of the finger?

Rhetorical questions to whom I already have the answer, but unfortunately I just can’t get inside of others minds!

Good night, Romania! Good night, readers…

Ostrich position

I have recently come back home, to Romania. To most of the people coming back home would be a blessing, it would mean meet all the loved ones, the relatives, get back to the old style of life and so on.

Well, sorry to break the circle, but for me the return wasn’t a delight, unfortunately. I know that re-adapting is not supposed to be easy, they say it takes time and only after a while you manage to find your place again, to make the changes be something good, to find the good side of the things and embrace the NEW. No one ever told me it would be this hard, I had no clue I would be blown away by everything: the noise, the agitation, the pollution, the crazy traffic, the weird people, the lack of good sense and the – all in all- called WILDNESS. I took all the needed protection measures: I stayed inside, I tried to do something everyday that would stop me from thinking. It did not work, at all! Today for example I just got of for some hours, it took some courage to make up my mind, but I did it in the end, I knew I had to do it. So, in two hours I saw two accidents, I saw people who did not take precaution measures, who got out the car and started yelling and getting angry. Lots of drama, Romanian drama! And God knows we have a lot of  it, people seem to enjoy it day by day and they can’t live without. To me… it is just useless. I have learned a lot of lessons during my staying abroad, I have seen a different system that works best, I met people who had goals and who knew exactly what they want from life.

Here everything is a mess, they all struggle to make a living, but they do not actually know what they are doing, they do not actually try. Sadly, this phenomenon is called laziness! And most of the people suffer from it. They usually blame it on the weather, or…on the system, or on the other people. No one ever knows who’s fault it is if something bad happens!But someone did it, of course! The answer is they do it themselves, but they will never have the strength to agree, to admit it.
Here people can say a lot of things, they usually promise all your ears want to hear, I have to say it can sound pretty promising, but in the end nothing happens. You wait and you wait…and nothing! You only get dissapointed, day by day, hour by hour, you wait for something good to happen, wishing that some of them would get back to their senses. Stop dreaming! Lost cause!

If someone says that they will bring you something tomorrow, something that is rightfully yours, of course, that belongs to you, you will never see it happening. Always remember to ask about the month or the year they are referring to, it might be vital in case you really count on that object.

If a family member promises that they would help you with something you really need help with, also mentioning it will happen tomorrow, don’t buy it. They would probably not even call and the next time you will talk- because you call or you meet randomly,they will say they’ve been so busy that you can’t imagine.

If you are about to do something important, like presenting something and you even have a fixed date… surprise!It won’t happen, they won’t even let you know that things have changed, you will have to figure out that yourself.

If something needs to be said, they won’t say it, if you tell them something, asking them to think logical or to act mature, nothing will happen!

There is no way out since everyone is hiding their heads in the sand, pretending everything is OK. They all love the ostrich position! Do you?!?!

p.s. The rest of the world doesn’t, that’s why they even grow ostrichs in farms:)

Wake up people, the clock is ticking!