Puzzle

It’s not easy knowing what people want. It’s almost impossible understanding when they show something, but they mean something else. Looks can be deceiving they say, I say the human mind is a labyrinth and one way or another you will be trapped inside. There is no way out!

Will we ever find the perfect strategy to win over humanity’s deceiving appearances?

I have been trying that my whole life, did it constantly and still didn’t get the essence of it. But one of the best lessons I learned was not to have any expectations…and it worked! I stopped having expectations from others, but it seems like the others started having more expectations from me. Tricky situation…Still trapped inside the circle, still trying to figure out how to solve the issue. Next step seems to be learning how to tell them they are wrong or-the ultimate- learning not to care.

Do vibrations count when it comes to understanding what others want when showing something really different or should we pick up mind guessing? Wouldn’t it be so much easier if they would just simply say what’s on their mind/soul? Wouldn’t communication be the easy way out instead of hiding  in the back of the finger?

Rhetorical questions to whom I already have the answer, but unfortunately I just can’t get inside of others minds!

Good night, Romania! Good night, readers…

A beautiful day

It was a beautiful day, a day when I knew I did not have to do anything special in order to feel special. This kind of day comes only once a year and that’s the reason I think everyone should love their bdays, it’s a celebration of a special moment in time: the moment you came on this world and that is a blessing!

Sometimes you don’t need to do much on your birthday, it’s enough to pick up the phone and talk to your friends and family, tell them the news, receive the blessings. I was able to feel a huge amount of positive energy coming from everywhere…and even if maybe it was a long and harsh year, today I really felt it was all worth it! Life has mysterious ways of showing you what is better for you, sometimes you have to pass a lot of tests, to prove you are ready for the next level.

I cried today, but I did it just because I was happy…Such an intense unique feeling…

Thanks from the heart friends!

Another year, another person

Time changes.

People change.

Life is not constant and it goes on whatever it happens meanwhile, with or without us. So, that been said, it’s just better to be in the cart and not walk next to it. If you’re running after it, speed up and jump on it!

365 days are not enough to describe what you  experienced in one year, sometimes you would need more time on your side to tell others what you’ve been through and what you’ve learned.

The time inside is greater than the one outside.

Expanding is the key of the unknown.

I am not getting older, I am just getting wiser. I am growing in beliefs daily, hoping that one day I will be able to show others what life is about, that I could guide them through their darkest times and lead them towards light.

It’s still me, but I am an improved version, upgraded to the latest demands of the society, equipped with patience, forgiveness, maturity and understanding.

I need all that to be able to help myself and others. I need all that for the next year, for the other versions of myself.

Time changes, people change, reality is still the same and I just turned …27!

Kingdom of solitude

Silence…nothing else to disturb my thoughts, nothing more than my solitude. Try stopping for a minute from daily routine and admire the cliffs of the soul, all wrapped in sharp twisted pieces of sadness. It might be discouraging or it might bring great relief, but there is only one consequence on the spot: the sacred emptiness.

Random thoughts stream down my brain, small parallel universes which try to align. In the end there is just chaos left behind.

It is my kingdom of solitude!

Ostrich position

I have recently come back home, to Romania. To most of the people coming back home would be a blessing, it would mean meet all the loved ones, the relatives, get back to the old style of life and so on.

Well, sorry to break the circle, but for me the return wasn’t a delight, unfortunately. I know that re-adapting is not supposed to be easy, they say it takes time and only after a while you manage to find your place again, to make the changes be something good, to find the good side of the things and embrace the NEW. No one ever told me it would be this hard, I had no clue I would be blown away by everything: the noise, the agitation, the pollution, the crazy traffic, the weird people, the lack of good sense and the – all in all- called WILDNESS. I took all the needed protection measures: I stayed inside, I tried to do something everyday that would stop me from thinking. It did not work, at all! Today for example I just got of for some hours, it took some courage to make up my mind, but I did it in the end, I knew I had to do it. So, in two hours I saw two accidents, I saw people who did not take precaution measures, who got out the car and started yelling and getting angry. Lots of drama, Romanian drama! And God knows we have a lot of  it, people seem to enjoy it day by day and they can’t live without. To me… it is just useless. I have learned a lot of lessons during my staying abroad, I have seen a different system that works best, I met people who had goals and who knew exactly what they want from life.

Here everything is a mess, they all struggle to make a living, but they do not actually know what they are doing, they do not actually try. Sadly, this phenomenon is called laziness! And most of the people suffer from it. They usually blame it on the weather, or…on the system, or on the other people. No one ever knows who’s fault it is if something bad happens!But someone did it, of course! The answer is they do it themselves, but they will never have the strength to agree, to admit it.
Here people can say a lot of things, they usually promise all your ears want to hear, I have to say it can sound pretty promising, but in the end nothing happens. You wait and you wait…and nothing! You only get dissapointed, day by day, hour by hour, you wait for something good to happen, wishing that some of them would get back to their senses. Stop dreaming! Lost cause!

If someone says that they will bring you something tomorrow, something that is rightfully yours, of course, that belongs to you, you will never see it happening. Always remember to ask about the month or the year they are referring to, it might be vital in case you really count on that object.

If a family member promises that they would help you with something you really need help with, also mentioning it will happen tomorrow, don’t buy it. They would probably not even call and the next time you will talk- because you call or you meet randomly,they will say they’ve been so busy that you can’t imagine.

If you are about to do something important, like presenting something and you even have a fixed date… surprise!It won’t happen, they won’t even let you know that things have changed, you will have to figure out that yourself.

If something needs to be said, they won’t say it, if you tell them something, asking them to think logical or to act mature, nothing will happen!

There is no way out since everyone is hiding their heads in the sand, pretending everything is OK. They all love the ostrich position! Do you?!?!

p.s. The rest of the world doesn’t, that’s why they even grow ostrichs in farms:)

Wake up people, the clock is ticking!

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